Since I recently reminded people that my GoFundMe fundraiser ends on August 15th, it has really taken off again. It’s just $800 away from the GOAL I set for it!
I’m very teary-eyed these days. Not solely because of what I’m losing by moving (proximity to my dearest local friends) but because so many people (most of them strangers) have been blessing me left and right! (See last entry…)
It’s like the universe has shifted
I have always felt very much alone. I suppose we all do at times, but for me it has been chronic and life-long because — well, because I come across as a loner! Let’s face the truth!
Because I never felt I could truly rely on anyone else (without inconveniencing them mightily), I have always relied on myself. I’m a great giver when people need help, but I’m not a great taker when I do. I try to do everything that’s hard alone because I realize how hard life is for everyone else, too. I don’t like feeling like a burden, or as if I’m ever asking for too much. heavy sighs have met me so many times when I have asked for help that I pretty much just stopped asking. I felt less “guilty” that way! (Is anyone else relating to this, or is it just me?)
But now, suddenly, it seems I can’t get enough of the people I have pretty much been avoiding so as not to irritate them in some unrecognized way. I’m playing Mexican Train with them, eating dinner with them, feeling like part of their family.
Alas!
Better late than never, but what a time to find out — just as I’m being forced out of the country by policies being put in place by a regime that throws individuals like me into some Alligator Auschwitz somewhere without benefit of the rule of law and without having committed any crime other than being myself.
A majority of the people treated thusly so far have NO criminal records at all. And many of them are just disappeared; their families may never know what became of them. And — mark my words here — immigrants are only the FIRST occupants of these facilities — others will follow. They aren’t building these facilities for short-time/immigrant only use. If history is any guide (the Mustache Man’s Third Reich — look it up), they’re planning the wholesale removal of those (by all means available to them, rule of law be damned) who don’t fit into their White Christian Male Supremacist ideology. These are the most dangerous people! MOST Americans, whether they realize it or not, are on their hit list. (White men only make up 30% of the US population!) They’ve already targeted women — voting, bodily autonomy, DEI, etc.– and they’ve targeted non-white folks since 1609!
I will be anxious for anyone who remains in the US.
It’s gonna get uglier before it gets better. If it can get better, the way everything is being rigged to make sure it doesn’t!
Anyway, I’m glad I’m just 37 days away (if I’m counting correctly) from getting the hell outta Dodge. The Heritage Foundation/Trump Regime have certainly accomplished their dual mission with me. I see the writing on the wall and I’m disappearing myself under my own terms!
Pretty soon, whatever happens here will no longer be my circus or my monkeys
Instead, I’m gonna be living near real monkeys (monos). And sloths (perezosos). And macaws (guacamayas). And iguanas.
Be still, my heart!
